Misfits Mid-Life Crisis Adventures in East London & Surrey (The NEXT Chapter).
Week 135 Saturday 14th January 2017 until Friday 20th January 2017.
I have mentioned before that as a child I wanted to be in no particular order a BBC camera person or an astronaut. If you asked me today, I still want to achieve both of those jobs but I’m not clever enough so those dreams will remain out of reach. If you were to ask me today how do I see my future I would say as a writer and director, these are still difficult but achievable.
After a swim, it was nice to see a couple of heroes on a big screen.
I am a creative person, I realise you wouldn’t have guessed this from the shiz. Over the years I have done cartoons in magazines, hospital radio, theatre stages management, made small short films with a cine camera and jumped out of a plane. That wasn’t creative but it was a fun. I have written for a long time and have stored away note pad after note pad of ideas and stories that no other human will ever read. But at least I know if I run out of loo roll there is plenty of scrap paper around. I have to make changes to this existence I call life. After spending what feels like most of my life believing that I can’t do things, I am now trying have a go. For years I wanted to act, do stand up but I really thought that a person like me could never do it. It’s only now at the late stage in life that I am beginning to not care about what others think.
Lovely evening at the Apollo Theatre, the star of the show popped up to see the cheap seats.
I’m currently at a cross roads and have to make decisions. I need to make money as well as save some, of course I have bills to pay but I also want to feel that I am a useful member of society again. Over the last few days I have had thoughts which distress me greatly. Do I go back to working In an office Monday to Friday demanding that people pay their taxes. This is something I desperately don’t want to do, when I finished doing that last August I won’t lie but my mental health was in tatters. The thought of going back into that stressful air conditioned environment is already making me feel ill.
Enjoying a little culture in Theatreland.
Or do I stand my ground and try to get background and possible acting work none of this is regularly and so far I have been working for free. I have joined an agency which mainly deal with paid work, so fingers crossed I’ll get a call or text from them. But it’s not just paying bills that’s important I really want (NEED) to return to Mozambique a place that stole more than my heart a few years ago. My next visit probably won’t be for as long as previous trips because of lack of money, but if I can go for a few months I’ll be happy. In fact if I could return once or twice a year to that beautiful place by the Indian Ocean I would be happy.
Mum said this was her first Starbuck, so we started with a very small cup.
But I’m here in the UK, and as I have said its decision time, which way do I go left or right, take the red pill or the blue pill. I need to knuckle down, write the scripts which are floating around my head. As well as finish the children’s book I’ve been working on for years. I have this vain of creativeness flowing through me continually but none of it ever breaks through the surface. I’m like a volcano constantly bubbling making the odd rumble but never erupts.
I think she’s really hoping that this is not something she’ll get on her Bday next week.
I’m never going to be considered a success, I never going to make money but that’s ok with me because I just want to be happy. Yes if you were to ask me right now, what do I want to do I would love to write and direct so it’s time to pull my finger out stop wasting time and get on with it. Maybe one day I will have a project however small that my friends and family will be proud of, and earn me a few pounds.
Original Moomins art at the Royal Festival Hall.
Im 48 and really haven’t achieved anything and I feel it’s time to turn this ship around. You can’t turn an oil tanker straight away, it takes a long time and many miles to achieve that. Yes I consider myself an old rusty tub that probably should be sunk and turned in to an artificial reef. But at the moment i am still afloat, so I better start to turn this ship around and do some good.
Coffee while writing this shiz.
In Other News…
Myself to MOZ what’s that album called “obese”.
MOZ looking at me with a smile “no older”.
Mum spoke to Iain Lee live on the radio, I think she enjoyed herself. Luckily we didn’t wake the whole house up, that could have been awkward.
My excuse was it was cold while waiting for my train.
The Mid Life Crisis Conts……
This week I have mainly been watching: “Britain Ancient Capital: Secrets Of Orkney”, (ep 3). “Buffy The Vampire Slayer”, (Season 3, ep 5 to 7). “Chewing Gum”, (Season 2, ep 1 & 2). “Close To The Enemy”, (ep 6). “Drones WTF?”. “James May, The Reassembler”, (Season 2, ep 4). “Live Lounge: The XX”. “Mr Beans Holiday”, (2007). “Not Going Out”, (Season 8, ep 1). “Pointless”, (Season 16, ep 36, the 1000 ep). “Revolting”, (ep 3). “Sherlock”, (Season 4, ep 3). “Spies”, (ep 1 & 2). “Taboo”, (ep 2). “The Graham Norton Show”, (Season 20, ep 13). “The Mystery Of The Crossrail Skulls”. “Walking The Americas”, (ep 1 & 2). “Walking The Himalayas”, (ep 1 to 4, 2 x short extras). “Walking The Nile”, (ep 1 to 4).
This week live on Stage: “Peter Pan Goes Wrong” (Apollo Theatre London).
This week I have mainly been listening to: “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Bonus)”, (16/01, 17/01, 19/01/17). “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Highlights)”, (31/12/16, NYE) (12/01, 13/01, 16/01, 17/01, 18/01, 19/01/17. “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Live)”, (16/01, 19/01/17). ”LBC Podcast: Mystery Hour”, (19/01/17). “LBC Podcast: Nick Abbot (Whole Show)”, (14/01, 20/01/17). “Scroobius Pip, Distraction Pieces”, (ep 39, pt 1 & pt 2: 05/06/15) (ep 40, 10/06/15) (ep 133, 18/01/17). “Soundtracking With Edith Bowman”, (ep 13, 28/10/16) (ep 14, 06/11/16) (ep 19, 09/12/16) (ep 23, 06/01/17) (ep 24, 13/01/17). “These People Podcast”, (ep 11, 14/01/17). “Toby Hadoke’s Who’s Round”, (ep 147, ep 148, 10/15) (ep 149, ep 150, ep 151, ep 152, 11/15) (ep 153, ep 154, ep 155, 12/15). “Morrissey”, “Teagan And Sara”, “Marillion”, “Wheatus”, ”Bronski Beat”, “Queen”, “The XX”, “The Vaccines”, “Arcade Fire”.