Misfits Mid-Life Crisis Adventures in East London, Surrey (The NEXT Chapter).

Week 125 Saturday 5^thNovember until Friday 11^thNovember 2016.

The most time consuming part of this weekly ramble is the list of what I have watched and listened to. Now I don’t really expect anyone to actually to read that rubbish.  But for me it’s a future diary that might trigger emotions and thoughts about what life was like during that particular week, even more so than what I had actually written.

 Unusual modelling job seen in Dagenham.

TV is something that I love to watch and have always been interested about how it’s made.  When I was small I wanted to be a camera person (as well as an astronaut, which I still do) I made models of TV cameras out of Lego ® or an old or not so old to my mums dismay tuppleware container.  Give me a box of any kind and I was happy to be on my own in a corner. As a kid I thought that every TV show had its own studio, Blue Peter was in one, Doctor Who in another, Grandstand next door while Morecombe and Wise were round the corner.  I watched and read as much about TV production as I could, learning how the wonderful sets and environments were created, filmed then pulled down.

  Wrapped up on the tube.

I remember drawing pictures of studios with lots of lights at the top where another child would put blue for the sky. Down the bottom I would have cameras and the studio, I was obsessed.  I will always remember when I first saw Television Centre for real with my best friend George.  I hope that if I ever suffer from something terrible like Alzheimer I will never forget that amazing moment when the dream factory suddenly passed the windows of the Routemaster I was riding.

 Value of the Month, as seen at my nieces school.  I think the world needs a little Respect after the week we have had.

If there was a highlight to my life it was the few short years that I worked at BBC Television Centre where I spent more time watching programmes being made than actually doing the job I was paid to do. If life had gone the way I would have liked I would have carried on working in TV instead of getting made redundant.  I really tried hard to get back but I wasn’t in a happy place in my mind so it wasn’t to be. There were decisions I should have made when I was told I was being thrown on the scrap heap in 92, I should have taken the blue pill instead of the red pill. I could have stayed at auntie Beeb in a different job, but no I got on my high horse and left.  I really have no one to blame for the total frak up of what I call life.

  Random pics of the week.

In the early 90s I said was in such a bad place mentally, this was when my gender dysphoria finally come to the surface after being hidden since I was a small boy (you will never know how hard it was to write that three letter word).  I spent the next couple of years on the dole, living in Stockwell in a small with flat with what appeared to be the whole cockroach population of the area. I got involved with drama classes pretending to be other people and having far too much fun doing improvisation.  I have videos from that time in my storage; I wonder what happened the people who I spent so much time with for a couple of years, I wonder if they made something of their lives.

 This is what got me through US Election night, and its not cola. 

It wasn’t a happy time for me and I made close friends life a misery, it was the start of the journey that would result in me finally being me correcting mistakes made by Mother Nature.  However one thing I couldn’t fix was that I wanted to be creative, these feelings just added to my unhappiness. Over the years I have dabbled here and there with creative things none have earned me any money or has given me something I can call a career. But more importantly I can smile that I have done something different.

 Trying to write this shiz, but getting distracted by Channel 4 drama and a mince pie.

Yes I still want to work in TV and get very excited when I see a TV camera.  In a parallel universe I like to think there is a Dana who is going through a mid-life crisis but is writing, directing maybe even acting and doing the odd bit of stand up.  I hope she is happy and living a fulfilling life that she should have always had and not needed to fight so much to get there.

 Back from a run, my first in a couple of week, and it shows.

In other news…..  

 Cant think of anything for this pic….

I deleted my online lonely hearts this week, I hardly ever went to them, they just made me feel even more lonely and isolated. Note to self, you’ve tried online dating twice DONT do it again. I except I am supposed to be alone. 

The Mid Life Crisis Conts……

This week I have mainly been watching:  “Artic Live”, (ep 1 to 3).  “Asian Provocateur”, (Season 2, ep 1 to 5).  “Breaking Into Prison”.  “Class”, (Season 1, ep 4).  “Citizen Khan”, (Season 5, ep 1 & 2).  “Close To The Enemy”, (Season 1, ep 1).  “Crazyheads”, (Season 1, ep 4).  “Doctor Who: Power Of The Daleks (animation)”, (prod code EE, original TX 05/11/66 until 10/12/66, ep 1 to 6).  “Have I Got News For You”, (Season 52 ep 6).  “Humans”, (Season 2, ep 2).  “My Jihad”, (Season 1, ep 1 to 4).  “Planet Earth II”, (ep 1).  “Rich Halls, Presidential Grunge Match”.  “Star Trek, Original Series”, (Season 3, ep 16).  “The Apprentice”, (Season 12, ep 6).  “The Apprentice: Honest Subtitles”, (Season 2, ep 6).  “The Apprentice: Your Fired”, (Season 11, ep 6).   “The Graham Norton Show”, (Season 20, ep 7).  “The Last Leg (Season 9, ep 5).  “The Last Leg: US Election Special”.  “The Sky At Night”, (27/09/60) (03/08/69) (11/12/95) (07/02/05).  “US Election Night Live (BBC)”.   

This week I have mainly been listening to:  “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Bonus)”, (07/11/16).  “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Highlights)”, (03/11, 04/11, 07/11, 09/11/16).  “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Live)”, (07/11, 09/11, 10/11/16).  ”LBC Podcast: Mystery Hour”, (10/11/16).   “LBC Podcast: Nick Abbot (Whole Show)”, (05/11).  “Toby Hadoke’s Who’s Round”,(ep 81 to 88, 11/14)(ep 89 to 91, 12/14)(ep 193, 10/16). “The Adam Buxton Podcast”, (ep 2, 23/09/15)(ep 6, 21/10/15)(ep 16, 13/04/16)(ep 19, 06/05/16)(ep 21, 03/06/16).  “Scroobius Pip, Distraction Pieces”, (ep 121, 06/10/16)(ep 122, 02/11/16)(ep 123, 09/11/16).  “Morrissey”, “Smiths”, “Christine And The Queens”, “Nick Kershaw”, “M.I.A”, ”Kate Bush”, ”The Vaccines”, “Blur”, “Leonard Cohen”.