Misfits Mid-Life Crisis Adventures in East London, Surrey (The NEXT Chapter).
Week 125 Saturday 5thNovember until Friday 11thNovember 2016.
The most time consuming part of this weekly ramble is the list of what I have watched and listened to. Now I don’t really expect anyone to actually to read that rubbish. But for me it’s a future diary that might trigger emotions and thoughts about what life was like during that particular week, even more so than what I had actually written.
Unusual modelling job seen in Dagenham.
TV is something that I love to watch and have always been interested about how it’s made. When I was small I wanted to be a camera person (as well as an astronaut, which I still do) I made models of TV cameras out of Lego ® or an old or not so old to my mums dismay tuppleware container. Give me a box of any kind and I was happy to be on my own in a corner. As a kid I thought that every TV show had its own studio, Blue Peter was in one, Doctor Who in another, Grandstand next door while Morecombe and Wise were round the corner. I watched and read as much about TV production as I could, learning how the wonderful sets and environments were created, filmed then pulled down.
Wrapped up on the tube.
I remember drawing pictures of studios with lots of lights at the top where another child would put blue for the sky. Down the bottom I would have cameras and the studio, I was obsessed. I will always remember when I first saw Television Centre for real with my best friend George. I hope that if I ever suffer from something terrible like Alzheimer I will never forget that amazing moment when the dream factory suddenly passed the windows of the Routemaster I was riding.
Value of the Month, as seen at my nieces school. I think the world needs a little Respect after the week we have had.
If there was a highlight to my life it was the few short years that I worked at BBC Television Centre where I spent more time watching programmes being made than actually doing the job I was paid to do. If life had gone the way I would have liked I would have carried on working in TV instead of getting made redundant. I really tried hard to get back but I wasn’t in a happy place in my mind so it wasn’t to be. There were decisions I should have made when I was told I was being thrown on the scrap heap in 92, I should have taken the blue pill instead of the red pill. I could have stayed at auntie Beeb in a different job, but no I got on my high horse and left. I really have no one to blame for the total frak up of what I call life.
Random pics of the week.
In the early 90s I said was in such a bad place mentally, this was when my gender dysphoria finally come to the surface after being hidden since I was a small boy (you will never know how hard it was to write that three letter word). I spent the next couple of years on the dole, living in Stockwell in a small with flat with what appeared to be the whole cockroach population of the area. I got involved with drama classes pretending to be other people and having far too much fun doing improvisation. I have videos from that time in my storage; I wonder what happened the people who I spent so much time with for a couple of years, I wonder if they made something of their lives.
This is what got me through US Election night, and its not cola.
It wasn’t a happy time for me and I made close friends life a misery, it was the start of the journey that would result in me finally being me correcting mistakes made by Mother Nature. However one thing I couldn’t fix was that I wanted to be creative, these feelings just added to my unhappiness. Over the years I have dabbled here and there with creative things none have earned me any money or has given me something I can call a career. But more importantly I can smile that I have done something different.
Trying to write this shiz, but getting distracted by Channel 4 drama and a mince pie.
Yes I still want to work in TV and get very excited when I see a TV camera. In a parallel universe I like to think there is a Dana who is going through a mid-life crisis but is writing, directing maybe even acting and doing the odd bit of stand up. I hope she is happy and living a fulfilling life that she should have always had and not needed to fight so much to get there.
Back from a run, my first in a couple of week, and it shows.
In other news…..
Cant think of anything for this pic….
I deleted my online lonely hearts this week, I hardly ever went to them, they just made me feel even more lonely and isolated. Note to self, you’ve tried online dating twice DONT do it again. I except I am supposed to be alone.
The Mid Life Crisis Conts……
This week I have mainly been watching: “Artic Live”, (ep 1 to 3). “Asian Provocateur”, (Season 2, ep 1 to 5). “Breaking Into Prison”. “Class”, (Season 1, ep 4). “Citizen Khan”, (Season 5, ep 1 & 2). “Close To The Enemy”, (Season 1, ep 1). “Crazyheads”, (Season 1, ep 4). “Doctor Who: Power Of The Daleks (animation)”, (prod code EE, original TX 05/11/66 until 10/12/66, ep 1 to 6). “Have I Got News For You”, (Season 52 ep 6). “Humans”, (Season 2, ep 2). “My Jihad”, (Season 1, ep 1 to 4). “Planet Earth II”, (ep 1). “Rich Halls, Presidential Grunge Match”. “Star Trek, Original Series”, (Season 3, ep 16). “The Apprentice”, (Season 12, ep 6). “The Apprentice: Honest Subtitles”, (Season 2, ep 6). “The Apprentice: Your Fired”, (Season 11, ep 6). “The Graham Norton Show”, (Season 20, ep 7). “The Last Leg (Season 9, ep 5). “The Last Leg: US Election Special”. “The Sky At Night”, (27/09/60) (03/08/69) (11/12/95) (07/02/05). “US Election Night Live (BBC)”.
This week I have mainly been listening to: “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Bonus)”, (07/11/16). “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Highlights)”, (03/11, 04/11, 07/11, 09/11/16). “Iain Lee: TalkRADIO (Live)”, (07/11, 09/11, 10/11/16). ”LBC Podcast: Mystery Hour”, (10/11/16). “LBC Podcast: Nick Abbot (Whole Show)”, (05/11). “Toby Hadoke’s Who’s Round”,(ep 81 to 88, 11/14)(ep 89 to 91, 12/14)(ep 193, 10/16). “The Adam Buxton Podcast”, (ep 2, 23/09/15)(ep 6, 21/10/15)(ep 16, 13/04/16)(ep 19, 06/05/16)(ep 21, 03/06/16). “Scroobius Pip, Distraction Pieces”, (ep 121, 06/10/16)(ep 122, 02/11/16)(ep 123, 09/11/16). “Morrissey”, “Smiths”, “Christine And The Queens”, “Nick Kershaw”, “M.I.A”, ”Kate Bush”, ”The Vaccines”, “Blur”, “Leonard Cohen”.